It Always Stays Real

Last week my son got jumped and robbed. Because he lives in a place that has no electricity and not much of anything he had no way to minister to his wounds. I put oil on my hands and placed them on my face and prayed that God would help to heal his face, his spirit and his enslavement. Yesterday, he celebrated his birthday, no one there with him, alone. He did get a couple of bucks we had sent him so he had some good food, a saving grace. I so wanted to be there to comfort him.

Today they came and repossessed our car. I wonder sometimes how I keep it together, because I don't feel like keeping it together. I feel like I could meltdown, but years of practice have kept me numb and just moving forward. Once year I wrote down the traumas and difficulties that occurred over the year. I was blown away by how much had occurred, yet I continued on with hope. It has always been this way, as long as I can remember. I know God is going to work this out for us, don't know how, I just know He will because He always does.

I feel a change happening. I am watching for what is coming next. I am ready for some cool, calm, joyful days.

Lord God, I love you, bring your peace to my heart and to my family. Lord, let me be a light in the darkness for those that do not know you. Father, let my countenance reflect You and not what may be going on in my life and the discouragement I feel. Lord, please bless and protect those who serve You. You are all we need.

Wolf Creek Pass, Colorado

Sometimes I think I can't see the Pillar

It is the end of July 2009. 200 days of the Obama Administration and I can see all the issue changes converging, restructuring what our founding fathers intended. The Constitution, The Bill of Rights, The Rule of Law, The Balance of Power, it's all on the table for revamping and destruction. Whenever you push/change the structure of society too fast, something has to give. Check out 1968; Bobbie Kennedy, Martin Luther King, Jr., Vietnam, Richard Nixon and Robert MacNamara - it didn't go too well. I am praying like mad for President Obama that he will receive devine revelation and not continue with this socialist agenda. I know of course that it is not just him, Congress is out of control. They have forgotten that they are to try to represent the will of the people. It is as if they are so deep in their microcosm that they are oblivious to what the pulse of this country is. I think this next 30 days could be a real teller of what the consequences are of too much change too fast. I dont' think it's going to be pretty.

Please God give our elected officials wisdom and revelation. Protect their families. Give us a heart for those that don't agree with us, AND let us keep praying for Your Devine agenda to be brought forth. Lord, let us see your Pillar of Fire and follow it.

This is my youngest child Nick. He is a Airman First Class. He just came home from his first tour in Iraq. He has become a fine young man. He is in Security Forces and loves his job. We are proud of him and welcome him back to the USA!

Memorial Day 2009

I can hardly stand it anymore. I so want to be used to help the Wounded Warriors, when will that day come. Today is really intense. I know that there is suffering that I could help with but I am not in a place to do that yet. I am praying and asking that God will fulfill what He told me 2 1/2 years ago and let me minister to those who need to find peace. I ask everyday, I pray all the time. I know timing is everything but there is such a great need. I will not quit until I have done this. It is my calling and the reason I am on this earth. It feels so desperate.

Inauguration Day 2009

Wow, today was a great day. God has really changed my heart and helped me to celebrate today. For all my friends who are African/Amer. I hope today was all you thought it should be. Now we must pray in earnest for President Obama and his family. So much to do, so many plans against success.