Transition is not always easy, OR transition is never easy . . .

Day 27 of the fast and I have moved it to a new level this week. Juice only and limited. I would like to call this the prison camp fast but I am still getting too much okay nourishment for that. I can't figure out how those who have been subjected to real starvation, bad water, horrible conditions, etc. survived. I really don't know if I could. The first day with juice only was difficult and I wasn't sure if I would be able to do it because I don't want to stress my heart/system too much. I am doing this unto the Lord, but I don't want to incurr any debilitating side effects. I must say, that I seem to have more clarity the deeper I go into the fast. I have been spending a great deal of time in research, study, and prayer. It seems like I wake up with some biblical question each day that I must research, i.e.: How was the Hebraic calendar composed; what was Jesus' real birthday; What were the timelines for the patriarch's lineage and was Abraham alive to bounce Jacob (Israel) on his knee. The answers I am finding are amazing and are bringing more alignment to my faith and my relationship with our messianic heritage. After what I read about how Constantine set the celebration for Jesus' birthday on the day of the Sun God, that ripped it. I am never celebrating that day again. Best guess after much research is that Jesus was born during the Feast of Tabernacles (Sept. 29, 5 BC). That gave me much joy!! So from now on I will celebrate the feasts and take joy in G-d's provision at Tabernacles. I am guessing I will be taking a fair amount of heat from my children on this. Probably 3-4 years ago I started not putting up a tree because it was of pagan origin and just displaying a full size nativity in my house. They really haven't liked that either. Oh well, they can learn the truth and decide for themselves. I will keep on seeking the Lord and I am sure He will keep showing me the way to go.

Nick comes home in a week and a week after that Mary and Nick will be in AZ. I am just going to take one day as it comes. I will be happy for them but sad to not have any children in my house. Another transition. All that means is on to the next phase for Mike and Me. God orders the steps of the righteous. So off we will go.

I am moving towards the fire, seeking God

Today is day 11 of my fast. I don't think I can really call it a fast because I am still eating. I have just modified what I am eating so much that now that is becoming normal. There are so many food items that I no longer eat that I don't even care that much about food at all. I do have to eat something because my heart will act up if I don't. So I remind myself to eat if I don't feel like it. It's okay, I have new revelation everyday about what I need to do. It really helps me to seek and find God quicker because I feel more focused.

I just need to remember to stay in the "now" and not project. There is much to do to get ready for this next month. Yesterday, Mary and I went through all my kitchen/dishes and pulled out what her and Nick will take with them. She could not believe all the dishes, pot, pans, bake ware, gadgets, etc. that I have. I also cannot believe how much I have. It looks like it is garage sale time again. It is difficult to fathom getting rid of almost all if not all of it by the end of November. I really can't let myself think that far. I just need to do a little each day and keep moving forward. clearing out, packing up, moving on. I tried to imagine what my life will be like by December. I can't seem to get my mind around it. that is okay too, because God knows if He tells me too much too soon, I will run ahead. Not where I need to be.

Nick comes home in less than 3 weeks. It will be good to have him in the house again. The last time. I have been praying intensely for him this week. He is in his last week of AEF. They are running them hard, and it is hot, and it is dusty. This is definitely the time to press through. Victory is in sight.

I was going to work in the yard today, but I chose to do it Friday instead. Mike is taking an office day tomorrow, so I need to be around the house. Friday, early, that will work. Blessings.